Why???

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Why is it that it's always ok for the man to say whatever he wants when he wants whether it's a good time or not, but not for us?? I just got home from work and my husband is sitting on the couch wathcing t.v. and asks me what's wrong or what happened because he can tell I am not happy about something. I tell him I don't want to talk about it because I know it will only bother him and he won't want to hear it anyway. Of course he pressed and I started calmly expressing how I feel about things that have been going on here lately. Mostly about him wanting to move and get away from the neighbors (which btw is the only real reason he wants to do this). I tell him I have been upset for weeks and months about this ever since he's really been pushing it and especially now that he's been off of work it's gotten worse. I tell him that I went to a agent's web site to look at what they had to offer and nothing that I saw that they had available was crap. If it wasn't in Utica (which he doesn't want it to be) and not sale pending it was horible. Houses half the sixe of the one we have and more cost to take a step down and pay more for it. I am not worried about using that particular agent, but still if that's what asking prices are like I can ask a ton for my house.

I really don't want to move, but really have been given no other choice in the matter seeming how my husband won't listen to reason when anyone suggests any rational steps to take before just up and moving, seeming how moving is a pain in the ass and no one wants to do it and I would be the one having to take of more then half of it. He really just wants to up and move into my parents place or pay rent or something anyway and put our stuff in storage and pay for that too and just sell this place as fast as possible and then look for another place. I told him it doesn't work like that. As I already meantioned I started to look already and I was upset by what I saw was available even if it is a tiny portion of what's out there. I really can't take going through house after house waiting to get a feeling like I got when I first walked through this one. When I did that I knew this was the one I wanted. Of course and brand new one would have been great, but....

Anyway I just can't believe it's ok for him to rant and rave and carry on when he's upset or decides to talk about things, but oh if he doesn't want to be bothered or doesn't like what you have to say or the topic, he won't listen to you. I hate having to turn other strangers or my few frieds for teh support or release I need for my feeling instead of the one person I am supposed to turn to, my husband. I reather be abel tot turn to him and be able to tell him how I feel and actually expect some kind of resonce other then just silance and staring at the t.v the whole time I was talking and with a basic no comment after wards, even as I sat crying and upset.

Ok so I am a big dope

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Well I am a dig dope as you read in the titel. Of course your all probably wondering what makes me a big dope. Well I'll tell you. I fell for an April fools joke plyed by the hosts of mugglenet.com and theleakycauldron.org. Last week when I complained about not being able to get news because my fav Harry Potter sites were down was just because of a prank they were playing on fans. Well this fan is not amused. I would have been if I had time to check the web sites more then just on weekends and probably older then the people running the sites. Also because I thought they were down and were going to be still rebuilding after merging so I never checked the sites again. plus again I didn't have time during week. Of course because of this joke I missed out on knowing that the usually locked room on jkrowling.com was going to be open so I wasn't able to participate in something cool on her web site. Now the sign is back up and we can't get in again. At least those two sites are back up and working as normal again so I can read up on any new news. Which of course I spent the last few hours doing.

I went to a teacher recruitment day this weekend. Don't know if that's going to bring me any more luck landing a teaching job though. Some of the lines for certain schools were very long even though I was there right when they opened the doors. I couldn't stand around and wait in line to sign up for any interviews because I had to go to work and work for 4 hours so I can switch my Sat off for this upcoming because of the holiday.

I got new glasses thsi week. I only meantion it because when I went and picked them out and had my eye exam and all I was worried that they weren't really that nice and that I wouldn't like them over the ones I had, but when I picked them up they color turned out to be just fine and I am able to see really well (like when I first got glasses). Everything is very clear and crisp and wonderful. I am enjoying seeing through these new glasses very much and seeing the little things you never knew you were missing.

Anyway it's late and I have a busy day ahead tomorrow so I can't chat for long. c-ya later all.

Mrs.X

Very disapointed

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Well I don't know if I ever meantioned this to you, but I am a huge Harry Potter fan. I have all 6 books. I am so have the Brittish versions of all 6. I have the two unofficial guides. Last but not least I also have other source books about them. I have all 4 movies and I also have the SEEN IT version as well. Needless to say I like Harry Potter. I think it is a well written, well developed, and very thought provoking series . I think that it goes well beyond a childrens novel especially now as they have gotten older and the story has deepened. With all the hidden clues that the tricky J.K. Rowling has included along the way, it can take many readings by the smartest adults to really understand the deapth of this wonderful story.

Needless to say that being the big fan that I am I was very upset when I found that some of my favorite sites for up to date Harry Potter news: Mugglenet.com, the Leaky Cauldrom.com, and Godric's Hollow.org are all gone. Two have merged and the new site doesn't have any info other then that they are merged because the two web masters of the two different sites got married. And when going to Godric's Hollow I found that Alex (the web master for that site that I worked on a project for the site with), has let the registration on his site expire and it's asking for them to renew or the site name will be given to someone else. So what's a fan to do without a site to get news from?

Anyone have any other sites out there they like to go to? Let me know. I had time to relax today so wanted to hit some of my favorite sites and instead found all my paths blocked. What a way to end the night. Defeated once again for some fun on the internet I am signing off.

Mrs. X

I'm Back

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Yes that's right I;m back. Sorry for the long delay in getting back to writing here. I don't even know how to begin to tell you what's been keeping me away. Mostly it's time. When I get up in the morning I have little time to eat someing for so called breakfast (at like 10:30am), then read and watch a little t.v., then I have to go up and shower and get dressed for work, then eat a light lunch, which acts also as my dinner, then leave at 3:00pm to go to work. I know what your saying, instead of reading use the computer or instead of watching t.v.. Well my answer to this is simmple everytime I have tried to do just that it's taken longet for me to get through my e-mail and send responces then I have to run and shower or my old computer (I still have windows 98 everyone, don't laugh too hard) crapped out with my browser and I had to like pull it up like 3 times just to get through all my e-mail because it crashed on me. So it ends up taking longer and the time I would use to write here is now gone and I have to get running.

So you see things are a bit tight. When I am up earlier then normal it's useally because of something else and I'm not in the mood. I'm back today because my husband, the wonderful Dr. X has been tinkering with my computer recently. He installed more memory and wipped my c drive and got rid of a lot of crap my dad had left behind that he never wipped and in the process found that netscape came up with a new version 8.1 from the 8.0 I was using that really didn't run well on my machine and installed a different one. He still has more memory and a viedo card to install which he says will help my computer process the pics on the web sites and my backgroud and leave the memory open to run the stuff I need so it will all go a bit faster, which lets face we all want sped when it comes to our computers and pulling up web sites. So I decided to get back to my blog after all this time because I finally have a computer that won't crash on my in the middle of typing and then have to start over.

Not much has gone on really. My job is making changes and all the monagement and supervisors and trying to make it out to be like the greatest thing ever, but those who have been there a long time (my self included of course) feel they are ripping us off. They are starting this pay per peice program and sometimes the stuff I'll do will be based on a base pay which is decided by what teir your placed in and the other stuff is paid per item. So it effecs me some of the time and over all will affect the pay I take home. Now as I am sure your all aware can't really happen. That's why I stay at this crummy job for to begin with because my pay is pretty decent and I've been there so long now that it's not worth leaving. However I am now afraid that if at the upcoming teacher recruitment day I don't land interviews from dropping off my applications and what not and land a teaching job I don't know what's going to happen. So we are just in a wait and see mode and hopefully it all works out in the end. That's all I want really.

I have been subbing, though not as much as I would have liked. Now that the weather has broke and calls come in I am hoping that I will be able to get to more of them by the end of the year.

I have stopped taking books out of my local library only because I haven't had any titles that I want to place on hold and pick up. So I would have to go in and pick out books, but I have some wating at home that I want to read and take care of so it was a nice break. I will however resume going back again I am sure. I just don't want to pressure of due dates on me right now.

Anyway it's been like an hour so I need to sign off and get doign something.

Mrs. X