waiting

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      I am trying to be patient and let the doc office get back to me, but don't know if I'm succeeding. Yesterday being a day off (finally) for me turned into taking care of a bunch of things. I was excited and proud of myself (at little anyway) for getting all this stuff done and getting to have lunch with my Sis, whom I haven't seen in a while. Of course the stuff turned into a disaster as almost everything I picked up at the store wasn't right or deemed not good enough for some reason or another. So after being belittled and made to feel that I was stupid for not knowing that what I was getting was wrong, an attempt to apologize just kind of  feel flat. So not in the best of moods and really hope the medicine I seem to need right now gets approved and I get it soon.

Feeling annoyed

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        Feeling annoyed today. Had a back and forth with my Doctors office. All I am wanting is them to leave me a script for a medication I already had been on and want to get back on for awhile. I also want a blood work order to test my levels. As 2 of the big reasons they say I might be having the hair loss issue is stress and off levels for hormones. Put off going in for overtime in case can get the info and still don't have an answer. May have one on Thursday, but I want it before then.

Making the best of it

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       Tried to post this last night, but blogger wasn't cooperating. I made use of the quiet Sunday afternoon after attending Mass. I typed up the first chapter of the Susan and Mark story, as they wouldn't get out of my head until I did:-D I also worked on typing up some of the Tess and Troy story. Didn't get too much on that, but 3 pages on the first. So over all not a lot done, but made use of the time to make sure I got something done.

finally

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           Finally felt up to posting something. Also finally had something to post about too. On a professional note, my horoscope couldn't have been more right yesterday. It said something about being creative and giving into that side of myself as it wouldn't be ignored. No soon then maybe an hour after reading that did it come true. I was walking down the sidewalk in front of my office, on my way in, when an idea popped into my head and wouldn't let go. It just gripped me and was all consuming .  Thank goodness the day started off slow (which for getting paid per call and doing an hour of overtime wasn't good) as I got to write the idea down in rough format. For this book there is research to be done, but haven't figured out details yet. Though I can introduce you to the new characters taking center stage. Meet Mark Hartman and Susan Delaney. Mark is a fireman and Susan is a office assistant in an office building across from Mark's firehouse. That's all I can tempt you with regarding this new development. It's too new to share more as the characters haven't given me much yet.

         On a personal note, I am sad. Have been for awhile, which is why things haven't been worked on and no blog postings. Yesterday I had a hair appointment anyway, but had to cut my hair short and am not too thrilled with having to do so. Not saying it looks bad, or that my hairdresser did a bad job on it. I just never wanted to go back to having short hair again. However, the thinning of it has progressed to the point that if I didn't it wouldn't look good. I have been hating my hair because of this and not wanting to wake up in the morning to have to deal with trying to play around with it so it didn't look like I had an issue. Which on top of the other stresses added more which compounded the issue. I have to call the doc office on Monday and get script for anti-anxiety med again. Hate to have to take meds for things I should be able to deal with, but apparently my body is telling me I am not dealing with things as well as I thought so if I don't want to be bald and hating myself even more, I have to do what I have to do for ME. I know it's vain to worry about such a trivial thing like hair, but when you are a women, it plays am important role in feeling feminine and pretty. If you don't feel it then everything else suffers. Believe me I haven't felt pretty in awhile. Even now, though my husband likes the new do, I don't feel feminine or pretty. I feel better that at least it looks ok for public outings and work, but other then that not thrilled with this whole development. Hopefully I can report some better changes and with those changes, the urge to be creative again will be back. Got to admit the little spark of it yesterday felt great for the time it lasted.