Hello all
Not much going on today. Came back from another sitmulating Saturday at work to spend some times with my husband. It's days like these that I really like. When we get to see each other. Or for that matter spend any time together. Doesn't even have to be in the same room it's good to know we are both up and can be with each other if we want to. Not like during the week when he's sleeping when I get home from work most of the time and I am always sleeping when he leaves for work. Though we don't have any plans because he never really wants to do anything anymore at least we get time to see each other. Though it really isn't much time to recharge my battery before teh work week starts again because I work every Saturday.
I am tired from being up early aand thank goodness nothing to say because nothing happened out of the norm so I am going to keep this one short. See you all later.
Saturday, August 27, 2005
Thursday, August 25, 2005
The weekend and beyond
The weekend started out on a bad note when on Friday night I was so tired after work that I didn't even want to drive home. I didn't want to drive to my parents either. However, they are closer to where I work then my house is so I ended up there even though I wasn't planing on it. The next day I was going with my Dad and brother out of state to visit my Grandmother in her nursing home.
The good news of the weekend is that she is doing well. She was alert and in good spirts, which is always nice to see. The only thing that worries me is her growing attachment to a stuffed dog that she takes to wraping up in her sweater (she always had one with her for as long as I've known her just in case) and acting like it's real. Other then that she's as much like her old self as can be expected for someone who is 93.
The 10 hour trip up and back (in one day mind you) kills all of that day and tires everyone out from being in the car that long. It's worth it however because at least we get to see her and say we did before she dies. It is good to know that at the age of 28, my borther being 38, and sister being 36 still have one remaining grandparetn to go visit.
However, my Aunt (Dad's sister) doesn't seem to think like that. It's only her family that is important and matters. Just because she never moved far away from her parents and my Dad was stationed far away (where he met my Mom)she takes it out on him that he and we can't be there for every little issue that pops up. She thinks our monthly visits are not enough. When my Grandpa died it was we'll plan things for when my cousin who lives in Virgina can make it up, not for anyone else's convenence. Thank god my borhter had flown in from California before he died or else he might have missed it with that attitude. Enough Aunt bashing for one day. She does have it hard with having to deal with it all and I feel for her I really do, but she doesn't need to take it out on my Dad or us like we are second class citizens next to her family.
Sunday was a good day. Was kept awake after and early am run to the potty by m husband and he wanted me to go food shopping with him so after resting a littl emore and hangin gout with him we went. Then even though I didn't go to church I went to my parents to visit the family. It's the only day of the week where I get to see my sister, brother and in-laws and their kids. Of course thsi day ended horribly.
When my Dad was over mid week to do the yard work and had gotten a drink, he noticed our fridge wasn't working that well. So he looked around and saw the back coils filled iwth dust so he cleaned it out and thought that was going to be that. Well when I got back from my parents the ice cream that I had just bought that day was mush so I had to call Dad and get him over because there was lots of dust in the front, but I couldn't really get at that well withthe vacume so he was going to help then just in case the next day we needed to call someone. Well I thought we had it fixed because it started to cycle on and off which it hadn't been doing lately. However, it didn't fix the problem. So Monday bright and early I called a repair guy and he came and told me it would cost too much to fix the problem and I'd be better off buying a new one. So I called into work, packed everything up out of the fridge and freezer and broght it over to my parents to store there so it wouldn't go bad. Then my Dad and I drove all over town compairing prices on fridges and finally bought one.
Of course we couldn't get same daay delivery so I went back to their house for supper and was hoping to be joined by my husband because there was no food at our house. He never came and I passed out there for the night because I was beat and I needed to pack all my stuff the next day to bring back to my house to make sure I had everything. Of course I forgot a few thigns, but I was packing in a hurry early in the morning.
So now it's tuesday and it's garbage day at my house. So I had to get all the green waste and twigs and stuff out to the curb before I left to go to work and Dad was over helping me do that and wanting to be there when they dropped off the fridge. So I was doing that they came and set up the fridge and then I showered and left for work. What a weekend.
Well so far the weeks been crazy and I hope that the end of the week brings better news or luck or less crazyness. Oh and BTW you might be asking what happened to my husband during all this. Well Sunday night when he saw the ice cream he stormed upstairs in a big fit because we were going to have to trow away all the food we just bought and then he was at work when the repair guy told me the bad news and threw at fit over the phone that he wanted me to call someone else to come and that's all we needed is to get a new fridge. He even nic picked that I didn't find a cheap enough price when I got us a really good deal on a stainless steal fridge. Now today Thursday he's picking on me for forgetting a few thigns and I guess expected me to go run and get them. So It's been one crazy week and I just can't wait for it to be over.
The good news of the weekend is that she is doing well. She was alert and in good spirts, which is always nice to see. The only thing that worries me is her growing attachment to a stuffed dog that she takes to wraping up in her sweater (she always had one with her for as long as I've known her just in case) and acting like it's real. Other then that she's as much like her old self as can be expected for someone who is 93.
The 10 hour trip up and back (in one day mind you) kills all of that day and tires everyone out from being in the car that long. It's worth it however because at least we get to see her and say we did before she dies. It is good to know that at the age of 28, my borther being 38, and sister being 36 still have one remaining grandparetn to go visit.
However, my Aunt (Dad's sister) doesn't seem to think like that. It's only her family that is important and matters. Just because she never moved far away from her parents and my Dad was stationed far away (where he met my Mom)she takes it out on him that he and we can't be there for every little issue that pops up. She thinks our monthly visits are not enough. When my Grandpa died it was we'll plan things for when my cousin who lives in Virgina can make it up, not for anyone else's convenence. Thank god my borhter had flown in from California before he died or else he might have missed it with that attitude. Enough Aunt bashing for one day. She does have it hard with having to deal with it all and I feel for her I really do, but she doesn't need to take it out on my Dad or us like we are second class citizens next to her family.
Sunday was a good day. Was kept awake after and early am run to the potty by m husband and he wanted me to go food shopping with him so after resting a littl emore and hangin gout with him we went. Then even though I didn't go to church I went to my parents to visit the family. It's the only day of the week where I get to see my sister, brother and in-laws and their kids. Of course thsi day ended horribly.
When my Dad was over mid week to do the yard work and had gotten a drink, he noticed our fridge wasn't working that well. So he looked around and saw the back coils filled iwth dust so he cleaned it out and thought that was going to be that. Well when I got back from my parents the ice cream that I had just bought that day was mush so I had to call Dad and get him over because there was lots of dust in the front, but I couldn't really get at that well withthe vacume so he was going to help then just in case the next day we needed to call someone. Well I thought we had it fixed because it started to cycle on and off which it hadn't been doing lately. However, it didn't fix the problem. So Monday bright and early I called a repair guy and he came and told me it would cost too much to fix the problem and I'd be better off buying a new one. So I called into work, packed everything up out of the fridge and freezer and broght it over to my parents to store there so it wouldn't go bad. Then my Dad and I drove all over town compairing prices on fridges and finally bought one.
Of course we couldn't get same daay delivery so I went back to their house for supper and was hoping to be joined by my husband because there was no food at our house. He never came and I passed out there for the night because I was beat and I needed to pack all my stuff the next day to bring back to my house to make sure I had everything. Of course I forgot a few thigns, but I was packing in a hurry early in the morning.
So now it's tuesday and it's garbage day at my house. So I had to get all the green waste and twigs and stuff out to the curb before I left to go to work and Dad was over helping me do that and wanting to be there when they dropped off the fridge. So I was doing that they came and set up the fridge and then I showered and left for work. What a weekend.
Well so far the weeks been crazy and I hope that the end of the week brings better news or luck or less crazyness. Oh and BTW you might be asking what happened to my husband during all this. Well Sunday night when he saw the ice cream he stormed upstairs in a big fit because we were going to have to trow away all the food we just bought and then he was at work when the repair guy told me the bad news and threw at fit over the phone that he wanted me to call someone else to come and that's all we needed is to get a new fridge. He even nic picked that I didn't find a cheap enough price when I got us a really good deal on a stainless steal fridge. Now today Thursday he's picking on me for forgetting a few thigns and I guess expected me to go run and get them. So It's been one crazy week and I just can't wait for it to be over.
Wednesday, August 24, 2005
Catching Up
Hello all. Well a these past few days have been crazy which is why I haven't written. This bolg was meant for things that happened before this past weekend. Last week to continue being helpful around the house I had my dad come and help me trim our hedges and tress that someone of my shortness can't really do well. He took a brach down that was hanging over our neighbors driveway that they probably hit with their van when pulling out and that was a big branch to get rid of. Plus a lot of dead branches that were just in the tree waiting to fall during a big storm.
The next day I took care of some pressing issues that I had on my mind to take care of and feel much better that they are done, watched a movie that my parents had that I wanted to see and relaxed.
Most importantly when I got the mail when Dad was over it was all junk that I usually get rid of, but I looked at it anyway because it had a career builder adds that meant there were jobs to look at and for shits and giggles I looked to see if there was anything in there for me and I found my dream job. Teaching at a local community college that was specifically looking for English prfessors. Unfortunetly it's only part time, but hey. I am trying to keep my excitment down about this because I haven't heard anything from them one way or another yet and probably won't, but it was good to find and apply for it and even if I don't get it maybe they will keep it on file for the next time they need some help.
Well I'll catch you all up on the weekend happenings and all in my next entry. Got to run to work soon.
The next day I took care of some pressing issues that I had on my mind to take care of and feel much better that they are done, watched a movie that my parents had that I wanted to see and relaxed.
Most importantly when I got the mail when Dad was over it was all junk that I usually get rid of, but I looked at it anyway because it had a career builder adds that meant there were jobs to look at and for shits and giggles I looked to see if there was anything in there for me and I found my dream job. Teaching at a local community college that was specifically looking for English prfessors. Unfortunetly it's only part time, but hey. I am trying to keep my excitment down about this because I haven't heard anything from them one way or another yet and probably won't, but it was good to find and apply for it and even if I don't get it maybe they will keep it on file for the next time they need some help.
Well I'll catch you all up on the weekend happenings and all in my next entry. Got to run to work soon.
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
A Helping Hand
Hello All
Hey today i am feeling very useful. My husband asked me to help him out with some things to help him out with some things with this busy week he got going on. Sso I took care of all household things garbage, empting the dishwasher, and getting boxes he needs so now I have to get dressed and go to work soon. How fun. Well that's my life pretty much. I need to jet to get ready to go.
Hey today i am feeling very useful. My husband asked me to help him out with some things to help him out with some things with this busy week he got going on. Sso I took care of all household things garbage, empting the dishwasher, and getting boxes he needs so now I have to get dressed and go to work soon. How fun. Well that's my life pretty much. I need to jet to get ready to go.
Monday, August 15, 2005
Busy as Usual
Hello All
Again I find myself not cought up on sleep, if anything worse off then I was before the weekend started, which is ok because I had a good weekend. I got to spend time with my husband on a peacful Sunday afternoon and got to see a frined I haven't seen in a long time on Saturday night.
I am running around as usual before work cooking, cleaning up, showering, getting dressed, trying to relax a little too before having to leave for work so don't have much time.
I hope you all enjoyed my post yesterday with my first chapter of the novel I have been working on. I do hope that with the exposure of this blog, thanks to Dr. X someone who is interested in helping me get it published and seeing more will contact me. Anyway for now this is all I got time to say. Have a good one.
Again I find myself not cought up on sleep, if anything worse off then I was before the weekend started, which is ok because I had a good weekend. I got to spend time with my husband on a peacful Sunday afternoon and got to see a frined I haven't seen in a long time on Saturday night.
I am running around as usual before work cooking, cleaning up, showering, getting dressed, trying to relax a little too before having to leave for work so don't have much time.
I hope you all enjoyed my post yesterday with my first chapter of the novel I have been working on. I do hope that with the exposure of this blog, thanks to Dr. X someone who is interested in helping me get it published and seeing more will contact me. Anyway for now this is all I got time to say. Have a good one.
Sunday, August 14, 2005
Finally
Hello All
Well the moment I have been waiting for since I opened my blog. My husband Dr.X has showed me why I couldn't cut and paste before. As before noted I am just playing around with writing a novel it's a romance. So here it is. Keep in mind it's a rough draft and has only been edited for most spelling and grammar, but not really broken up into paragraphs really well yet. I had a version that was , but the disk I had it saved on failed on my and so I lost that version and haven't had time since to really go through all the chapters I have written to fix it. Haven't the heart really. So without any futher ado my novel.
Chapter One
Troy Noble was on his way home from his job as a landscaper, when he let his mind wander to what tonight was, his high schools ten year reunion. Tonight his life was going to change forever. Troy arrived home and hopped into the shower, revealing a very muscular body. When he was finished, he put his mind to picking out the outfit he would wear tonight. Sitting on the edge of his bed getting dressed, he let his thoughts wander to the reunion as he was pulling on his pants. He couldn't believe that it was tonight. After all, he has waited eight years for this night. He let his mind wander. It was eight years ago when the woman he loves and wants to marry walked out of his life, for what could possibly be forever. He let his thoughts take him back to Tess. Just the thought of her name, let alone the fact he was going to see her tonight, sent his mind off to never never land.
The phone rang, snapping his mind back to the present. "Hello" he said, a little rougher then he intended. The voice on the other end belonged to his friend Joe. Joe, knowing what tonight was to Troy, wanted to check on his friend. "Troy" Joe said, "how are you doing?" "Fine" Troy said. "Just fine?" Joe asked, knowing his friend was lying. He could tell . "Nervous about tonight?" he asked. "No" Troy answered. He paused, "Yes" Troy admitted finally. "Don't worry, things will work out great. Tess and you were meant to be together. I've been listening to you talking about her since we've been in school together" Joe said being supportive of his friend's plans for tonight. "Thanks." Troy said. "I needed that boost of confidence". Joe said "You're welcome." Troy said " I have to finish getting ready and I'm running late." Joe said "Ok then I will talk to you later. Let me know what happens." Troy said "I will. Goodbye Joe." "Goodbye" Joe replied.
When Troy hung up the phone, he accessed his results in the mirror. Not bad he thought. The khakis he just put on were his favorite. Just tight enough to show off his muscular build, but not skin tight to give everything away. After all, tonight he had to look good. As he left the house to drive to the reunion he let his mind wander back to Tess.
Tess was the girl he had been in love with since sixth grade. However, as is typical with boys his age, he didn't know how to express these feelings so he teased her. He actully thought he lost her when he teased her so much in ninth grade she would run any time she saw him. Things looked up for him in eleventh grade when she offered him a pen when no one else would. He was determined to get back in her good graces because he still liked her, so he made sure he returned it promptly. That did it for her. After that, when they saw each other she would at least say hi to him.
Things really changed for them in their senior year of high school. They had first period class together During this time he, would flirt with her by making the chair in front of him push against the one that was behind her and make her chair move forcing her to notice him. During some of this time she had a boyfriend and watching her walk into class a little breathless and her lips kiss swollen killed him. He wanted to be the one who left her like that. There wasn't anything he could do about the boyfriend, but he could always flirt. Things really heated up when she and her boyfriend broke up.
He saw her upset one day in class, it nearly broke his heart. He laid low with the flirting and listened to her talking to her friend and found out what happened. They broke up!!! After that he stepped up the flirting. One day he was pushing on her chair like always, and she didn't turn around to flash him a smile like she always did. The teacher caught him because her chair was so far up from where it normally was. It was embarrassing when the teacher brought it up in front of the whole class. She was so unbelievably sexy when she blushed, he thought, remembering that day fondly. As his drive to the reunion came to a dead stop in rush hour traffic, he let his mind wander again to Tess.
This time to the ever better times he spent with her at college when he spent time with her before and between classes. He still remembered the first time he saw her sitting outside the library with the sun glistening off the natural blond highlights in her hair. She looked like an angel. Then, when she flashed him that smile of hers, he felt as if he had the air knocked out of him. He had to struggle to not trip as he walked passed her. When he came back out of the building, and she was still there, looking so good, he had to get closer. As he got closer he could see what his coming over to her was doing to her.
He could tell she was nervous, but she acted cool. From then on they spent days like that no matter what the weather. They even spent time sitting in his truck talking. It seemed so easy and natural with Tess. However, the only catch to this comfy situation between them was now he had a girlfriend and she didn't have a boyfriend. Then she met somebody not long before he was due to graduate. She had switched majors so she was still going to go to school still. From now on he didn't see her anymore. Every once in awhile he would happen to drive past her house. She would sometimes be outside when he passed by. When she was, he would either beep or, a few times when he was bold enough, he'd stop by and talk with her in his car. Other then those times he didn't see her. The last he knew, she was out of town going to college now to get her batchlor's degree.
The last time he saw her was at a local restaurant. He was meeting his father there real quick to be introduced to a potential client. As he was walking to meet them, he saw her sitting wih a women he knew to be her mom, because he met her before, and two other women he didn't know. He flashed her a big smile and she did the same. When he did what he needed to do he went over to her table and said hi to her. She invited him to stop by because she was back in town for good. He never saw her again. Thinking back on those days warmed his heart as he was in his car driving to the reunion. It was those carefree days that led to when he really fell in love with the bewitching woman that captured his heart so early on.
Then he thought back to the day when his mother showed him the Sunday paper wedding and engagement anoucement section. and asked him "Don't you know this woman?". He started to argue with her stating he wouldn't know anyone who was getting married, then his heart skipped a beat when he saw that familiar smile looking back at him with another man with his arms around her. That was the worst day in his life. Since then he has been keepingtabs on her. He knew where she was living now and where she was working, but he never tried to see her again.
He knew his plan for tonight was a little bold and that he was risking a lot, but he also knew that it would work like a charm and win him the woman he loved. With that final thought Troy pulled into the parking lot of the resturant where the reunion was to be held. He locked his car and got out into hot summer night. He strolled to the door and went inside. Once inside, he found the room where the runion was. He went to the booth to sign in. That's where he ran into Mary. Mary was a friend from school who reconized him right away. "Troy" she said. " How nice to see you". "Nice to see you too " Troy replied as he took the name tag Mary handed him.
Then he walked further into the room. He scaned the room and saw the familiar faces of his fellow classmates, looking for one in particular. He was getting nervous that she wasn't going to show tonight. That would be just his luck, he thought, as he walked over to the bar to get something to drink. As he took the drink and turned to walk away from the bar he saw her. The sight of her took his breath away. He took a swig of his drink to steady his nerves. Tess looked just as he remembered. With his gathered nerve, Troy walked over to where Tess stood talking to her friends. Tess had her back to him so she didn’t see him approaching. When he was standing right behind her he said "Hello Tess". At the sound of his voice Tess turned around and saw Troy standing before her.
Well the moment I have been waiting for since I opened my blog. My husband Dr.X has showed me why I couldn't cut and paste before. As before noted I am just playing around with writing a novel it's a romance. So here it is. Keep in mind it's a rough draft and has only been edited for most spelling and grammar, but not really broken up into paragraphs really well yet. I had a version that was , but the disk I had it saved on failed on my and so I lost that version and haven't had time since to really go through all the chapters I have written to fix it. Haven't the heart really. So without any futher ado my novel.
Chapter One
Troy Noble was on his way home from his job as a landscaper, when he let his mind wander to what tonight was, his high schools ten year reunion. Tonight his life was going to change forever. Troy arrived home and hopped into the shower, revealing a very muscular body. When he was finished, he put his mind to picking out the outfit he would wear tonight. Sitting on the edge of his bed getting dressed, he let his thoughts wander to the reunion as he was pulling on his pants. He couldn't believe that it was tonight. After all, he has waited eight years for this night. He let his mind wander. It was eight years ago when the woman he loves and wants to marry walked out of his life, for what could possibly be forever. He let his thoughts take him back to Tess. Just the thought of her name, let alone the fact he was going to see her tonight, sent his mind off to never never land.
The phone rang, snapping his mind back to the present. "Hello" he said, a little rougher then he intended. The voice on the other end belonged to his friend Joe. Joe, knowing what tonight was to Troy, wanted to check on his friend. "Troy" Joe said, "how are you doing?" "Fine" Troy said. "Just fine?" Joe asked, knowing his friend was lying. He could tell . "Nervous about tonight?" he asked. "No" Troy answered. He paused, "Yes" Troy admitted finally. "Don't worry, things will work out great. Tess and you were meant to be together. I've been listening to you talking about her since we've been in school together" Joe said being supportive of his friend's plans for tonight. "Thanks." Troy said. "I needed that boost of confidence". Joe said "You're welcome." Troy said " I have to finish getting ready and I'm running late." Joe said "Ok then I will talk to you later. Let me know what happens." Troy said "I will. Goodbye Joe." "Goodbye" Joe replied.
When Troy hung up the phone, he accessed his results in the mirror. Not bad he thought. The khakis he just put on were his favorite. Just tight enough to show off his muscular build, but not skin tight to give everything away. After all, tonight he had to look good. As he left the house to drive to the reunion he let his mind wander back to Tess.
Tess was the girl he had been in love with since sixth grade. However, as is typical with boys his age, he didn't know how to express these feelings so he teased her. He actully thought he lost her when he teased her so much in ninth grade she would run any time she saw him. Things looked up for him in eleventh grade when she offered him a pen when no one else would. He was determined to get back in her good graces because he still liked her, so he made sure he returned it promptly. That did it for her. After that, when they saw each other she would at least say hi to him.
Things really changed for them in their senior year of high school. They had first period class together During this time he, would flirt with her by making the chair in front of him push against the one that was behind her and make her chair move forcing her to notice him. During some of this time she had a boyfriend and watching her walk into class a little breathless and her lips kiss swollen killed him. He wanted to be the one who left her like that. There wasn't anything he could do about the boyfriend, but he could always flirt. Things really heated up when she and her boyfriend broke up.
He saw her upset one day in class, it nearly broke his heart. He laid low with the flirting and listened to her talking to her friend and found out what happened. They broke up!!! After that he stepped up the flirting. One day he was pushing on her chair like always, and she didn't turn around to flash him a smile like she always did. The teacher caught him because her chair was so far up from where it normally was. It was embarrassing when the teacher brought it up in front of the whole class. She was so unbelievably sexy when she blushed, he thought, remembering that day fondly. As his drive to the reunion came to a dead stop in rush hour traffic, he let his mind wander again to Tess.
This time to the ever better times he spent with her at college when he spent time with her before and between classes. He still remembered the first time he saw her sitting outside the library with the sun glistening off the natural blond highlights in her hair. She looked like an angel. Then, when she flashed him that smile of hers, he felt as if he had the air knocked out of him. He had to struggle to not trip as he walked passed her. When he came back out of the building, and she was still there, looking so good, he had to get closer. As he got closer he could see what his coming over to her was doing to her.
He could tell she was nervous, but she acted cool. From then on they spent days like that no matter what the weather. They even spent time sitting in his truck talking. It seemed so easy and natural with Tess. However, the only catch to this comfy situation between them was now he had a girlfriend and she didn't have a boyfriend. Then she met somebody not long before he was due to graduate. She had switched majors so she was still going to go to school still. From now on he didn't see her anymore. Every once in awhile he would happen to drive past her house. She would sometimes be outside when he passed by. When she was, he would either beep or, a few times when he was bold enough, he'd stop by and talk with her in his car. Other then those times he didn't see her. The last he knew, she was out of town going to college now to get her batchlor's degree.
The last time he saw her was at a local restaurant. He was meeting his father there real quick to be introduced to a potential client. As he was walking to meet them, he saw her sitting wih a women he knew to be her mom, because he met her before, and two other women he didn't know. He flashed her a big smile and she did the same. When he did what he needed to do he went over to her table and said hi to her. She invited him to stop by because she was back in town for good. He never saw her again. Thinking back on those days warmed his heart as he was in his car driving to the reunion. It was those carefree days that led to when he really fell in love with the bewitching woman that captured his heart so early on.
Then he thought back to the day when his mother showed him the Sunday paper wedding and engagement anoucement section. and asked him "Don't you know this woman?". He started to argue with her stating he wouldn't know anyone who was getting married, then his heart skipped a beat when he saw that familiar smile looking back at him with another man with his arms around her. That was the worst day in his life. Since then he has been keepingtabs on her. He knew where she was living now and where she was working, but he never tried to see her again.
He knew his plan for tonight was a little bold and that he was risking a lot, but he also knew that it would work like a charm and win him the woman he loved. With that final thought Troy pulled into the parking lot of the resturant where the reunion was to be held. He locked his car and got out into hot summer night. He strolled to the door and went inside. Once inside, he found the room where the runion was. He went to the booth to sign in. That's where he ran into Mary. Mary was a friend from school who reconized him right away. "Troy" she said. " How nice to see you". "Nice to see you too " Troy replied as he took the name tag Mary handed him.
Then he walked further into the room. He scaned the room and saw the familiar faces of his fellow classmates, looking for one in particular. He was getting nervous that she wasn't going to show tonight. That would be just his luck, he thought, as he walked over to the bar to get something to drink. As he took the drink and turned to walk away from the bar he saw her. The sight of her took his breath away. He took a swig of his drink to steady his nerves. Tess looked just as he remembered. With his gathered nerve, Troy walked over to where Tess stood talking to her friends. Tess had her back to him so she didn’t see him approaching. When he was standing right behind her he said "Hello Tess". At the sound of his voice Tess turned around and saw Troy standing before her.
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
Birthday Update
Hey all
Well my husbands birthday went ok. Of course the usual nightmare problems that seem to hover over me insued. The things I ordered for his birthday didn't show up in time. Well correction, two things showed up in time, but they were the gifts for my brother and sister to give to him, not mine or my parents. Of course that day was also hampered with my husband coming downstairs and kicking the coutch and coursing because his only pair of jeans have worn a hole that would split any second into a huge one if not repaired. So the day was off to a bad start, but worked out ok in the end. He was upset because none of his friends came to visit. Most didn't even call. I hated seeing him upset by this, but there was nothing I could do.
On his last day off Monday, we made a trip out to Syracuse early to go shopping for new paints for him and again the internet failed us. It pulled up another big and tall store location that doesn't exist anymore. So we spent 3 hours (up and back) in the care for nothing only to have him have to go on line to order some clothes. It never ends.
I am still bummbed out because no schools have called me to for interview and the one I did the phone interview for must not have liked my responces, though I don't know what I would have to say to make my answers better or whatever they needed to be to land a damn job already. I hate this year after year of disapointment in not landing a teaching postion for the upcoming school year. It just makes me feel like I went to school for this for nothing. I spent two years of my life devoted to getting a masters degree and it's gotten me no further then before I had one. I know I still needed to get it, but this is a hard blow to accept. If anyone out there in this big void can offer any suggestions it would be great.
Mrs. X
Well my husbands birthday went ok. Of course the usual nightmare problems that seem to hover over me insued. The things I ordered for his birthday didn't show up in time. Well correction, two things showed up in time, but they were the gifts for my brother and sister to give to him, not mine or my parents. Of course that day was also hampered with my husband coming downstairs and kicking the coutch and coursing because his only pair of jeans have worn a hole that would split any second into a huge one if not repaired. So the day was off to a bad start, but worked out ok in the end. He was upset because none of his friends came to visit. Most didn't even call. I hated seeing him upset by this, but there was nothing I could do.
On his last day off Monday, we made a trip out to Syracuse early to go shopping for new paints for him and again the internet failed us. It pulled up another big and tall store location that doesn't exist anymore. So we spent 3 hours (up and back) in the care for nothing only to have him have to go on line to order some clothes. It never ends.
I am still bummbed out because no schools have called me to for interview and the one I did the phone interview for must not have liked my responces, though I don't know what I would have to say to make my answers better or whatever they needed to be to land a damn job already. I hate this year after year of disapointment in not landing a teaching postion for the upcoming school year. It just makes me feel like I went to school for this for nothing. I spent two years of my life devoted to getting a masters degree and it's gotten me no further then before I had one. I know I still needed to get it, but this is a hard blow to accept. If anyone out there in this big void can offer any suggestions it would be great.
Mrs. X
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
Hey All
Well today was another fruitless attempt at landing a teaching job. The one school of the many that I applied to (most not local) responded yesterday to do a pre-interview phone interview. When I called them back they were not available and didn't call me back today (which I think was on purpose), so I called them. I did the phone interview and like most people who do interviews didn't let me know one way or another by tone of voice or anything if interested or not. Basicly she told me when we were done they would be in touch if I was chosen to come in for an interview, but tone of voice told me that I can probably kiss that goodbye. Who knows I could get lucky this time around. The last school who I interviewed with last week was so intent on me showing up for the interview the principal stated he's write me a note to my night job so I could make it in. However, I didn't make it past the first round as only 2 were goign to move on to the next round , which would have been an interview with the supperindendant. So I am not holding my breath. I have to make time sometime soon and call the schools I sub for and let them know that again for the 4th year in a row I am still available for them.
As you can tell I am very pissed about the situation. I was mean to someone who read my resume on line and called yesterday asking me if I was interested in a sales postion. I was on the phone and maaybe having to rush around (more on this in a min) and she calls I didn't even pay attention to where she said she was calling from. So when she asked if I had time to talk and I said pretty flat-out "NO" she seemed a little hurt so I toned it down a notch and asked if she was calling about a teaching postion. When she said no it was a sales postion I said "If it's not about a teaching postion I am not interested" and hung up on her.
The reason I was running around is because my husbands birthday is coming up as you all know and I had to go shopping for him while he wasn't around and he's off after today for the rest of the week. Which sucks for me in a way because that means all the little things I do to go about my day will be interupted and I won't be able to go about doing things the way I do most days. In any case shopping was a disaster. The Wal-Mart didn't have anything I wanted to get or most of what I wanted to get so I had to rush back to my parents ( I went shopping with my Mom) and had to order everything on line. It's not even going to be here in time because it most will ship and may be delivered by Friday, but who knows. So all this running around I could have saved myself and just did it from home. Oh well.
My family dog had follow up vet appointment today. He's doing much better then when we first took him in, but he lost weight instead of gaining it. Which is weird seeming how he has been eating a lot since he's gotten back from his operation. They removed most of his teeth because they were loose or rotting and were going to fall out anyway and he had started to bleed all over my parents house. So that's why we took him to the vet in the first place. So we'll see.
Anyway that's all the time I got for today.
Mrs. X
Well today was another fruitless attempt at landing a teaching job. The one school of the many that I applied to (most not local) responded yesterday to do a pre-interview phone interview. When I called them back they were not available and didn't call me back today (which I think was on purpose), so I called them. I did the phone interview and like most people who do interviews didn't let me know one way or another by tone of voice or anything if interested or not. Basicly she told me when we were done they would be in touch if I was chosen to come in for an interview, but tone of voice told me that I can probably kiss that goodbye. Who knows I could get lucky this time around. The last school who I interviewed with last week was so intent on me showing up for the interview the principal stated he's write me a note to my night job so I could make it in. However, I didn't make it past the first round as only 2 were goign to move on to the next round , which would have been an interview with the supperindendant. So I am not holding my breath. I have to make time sometime soon and call the schools I sub for and let them know that again for the 4th year in a row I am still available for them.
As you can tell I am very pissed about the situation. I was mean to someone who read my resume on line and called yesterday asking me if I was interested in a sales postion. I was on the phone and maaybe having to rush around (more on this in a min) and she calls I didn't even pay attention to where she said she was calling from. So when she asked if I had time to talk and I said pretty flat-out "NO" she seemed a little hurt so I toned it down a notch and asked if she was calling about a teaching postion. When she said no it was a sales postion I said "If it's not about a teaching postion I am not interested" and hung up on her.
The reason I was running around is because my husbands birthday is coming up as you all know and I had to go shopping for him while he wasn't around and he's off after today for the rest of the week. Which sucks for me in a way because that means all the little things I do to go about my day will be interupted and I won't be able to go about doing things the way I do most days. In any case shopping was a disaster. The Wal-Mart didn't have anything I wanted to get or most of what I wanted to get so I had to rush back to my parents ( I went shopping with my Mom) and had to order everything on line. It's not even going to be here in time because it most will ship and may be delivered by Friday, but who knows. So all this running around I could have saved myself and just did it from home. Oh well.
My family dog had follow up vet appointment today. He's doing much better then when we first took him in, but he lost weight instead of gaining it. Which is weird seeming how he has been eating a lot since he's gotten back from his operation. They removed most of his teeth because they were loose or rotting and were going to fall out anyway and he had started to bleed all over my parents house. So that's why we took him to the vet in the first place. So we'll see.
Anyway that's all the time I got for today.
Mrs. X
Tuesday, August 02, 2005
Don't know
Hello All
Again I am sitting at a crossroads as to what to do. I spent a great night with my husband sitting around after I got home from work, which was really nice. However, now I have to decide what to do about his birthday. I know he doesn't want me to spend money, but I would really like to get him something. I have an idea on what to get him I now have to decide what to do because I have to go shopping on a day when he's not around and he's going to be around from the end of the week on. So that's what's on my plate today. Anyway I've got to run not time today to chat.
Again I am sitting at a crossroads as to what to do. I spent a great night with my husband sitting around after I got home from work, which was really nice. However, now I have to decide what to do about his birthday. I know he doesn't want me to spend money, but I would really like to get him something. I have an idea on what to get him I now have to decide what to do because I have to go shopping on a day when he's not around and he's going to be around from the end of the week on. So that's what's on my plate today. Anyway I've got to run not time today to chat.
Monday, August 01, 2005
More of the Same
Hey all
I am very tired from going to bed so late last night, but I found that at least I feel better getting some of this stuff off my chest to anyone who reads this. Even if no one reads it ever I am at least getting it out there and it feels good.
One thing I didn't talk about last night that I wanted to touch on quickly is that my husband has taken to getting angry when I go visit my parents. He's upset because I can pick up and do it and he can't. Which I feel bad about. However, with the name of this blog being titles all exposed I have to admit that I find myself going there more and more because I can get away from things that keep staring me in the face at home and it's the only time I get to really relax.
Of course my husband let me go on vacation with my Dad in June. I had to take the time off from owwrk or loose it and I wasn't going to spend the whole week here having him call me and depress me and demand that stuff get done around the house. So for two and a half days I went to Niagra Falls. However, I wished I was with him and not my Dad and he wouldn't take the time off to come. Normally as he stated my days off are few and far between and are taken off to take care of something. I also work most of every Saturday, which also sucks because I only get1 true day off a week. Though with the half day at least I can do things if needed because the whole day is not shot. So it feels like a weekend (sort of)
Sso todays Monday and it's back to same shit. Work come home, go to bed repeat. He doesn't understand that I feels the same way about my job, but don't let it get to me as much as he does. He never lets me talk to him about it we barly ever see each other. Which bothers me just as much as it does him. I hate that when I come home most nights he's alseep already and if not falls asleep not long after. I know he goes to work early, but he spends a lot of time napping on the couch before I get home anyway so stay awake and see me. I don't really know what's going on or if moving will change anything and if anyone could I'd gladly pay them :-)
I still haven't figured out how to get my story posted so again I can't share any with you yet but I will. Well it's off to start this day ........
Mrs. X
I am very tired from going to bed so late last night, but I found that at least I feel better getting some of this stuff off my chest to anyone who reads this. Even if no one reads it ever I am at least getting it out there and it feels good.
One thing I didn't talk about last night that I wanted to touch on quickly is that my husband has taken to getting angry when I go visit my parents. He's upset because I can pick up and do it and he can't. Which I feel bad about. However, with the name of this blog being titles all exposed I have to admit that I find myself going there more and more because I can get away from things that keep staring me in the face at home and it's the only time I get to really relax.
Of course my husband let me go on vacation with my Dad in June. I had to take the time off from owwrk or loose it and I wasn't going to spend the whole week here having him call me and depress me and demand that stuff get done around the house. So for two and a half days I went to Niagra Falls. However, I wished I was with him and not my Dad and he wouldn't take the time off to come. Normally as he stated my days off are few and far between and are taken off to take care of something. I also work most of every Saturday, which also sucks because I only get1 true day off a week. Though with the half day at least I can do things if needed because the whole day is not shot. So it feels like a weekend (sort of)
Sso todays Monday and it's back to same shit. Work come home, go to bed repeat. He doesn't understand that I feels the same way about my job, but don't let it get to me as much as he does. He never lets me talk to him about it we barly ever see each other. Which bothers me just as much as it does him. I hate that when I come home most nights he's alseep already and if not falls asleep not long after. I know he goes to work early, but he spends a lot of time napping on the couch before I get home anyway so stay awake and see me. I don't really know what's going on or if moving will change anything and if anyone could I'd gladly pay them :-)
I still haven't figured out how to get my story posted so again I can't share any with you yet but I will. Well it's off to start this day ........
Mrs. X
My First Blog
Hello All
This blog has been created because of my husband. He has one on this site as well. You may know him as Dr. X His blog is live from the outskirts. I say it's been created because of him because I've seen him get satisfaction from his writing on this site and I need some of that right about now.
You see for some time he has been writing on here and telling everyone we don't have money and he doesn't have any fun anymore and that this is a washed up place to live. Most recently he has gone so far as to post a local newspaper article about gangs that was plublished a few days ago, which really set his "I want to move out of here" attitute he's had into high grear. This is unsettlting for me. I have lived here all my life. I have only moved away once and that was to be closer to him when we were dating. Of course once we got engaged and he didn't want me to have the type of career I wanted in NYC I moved back home. Once married he moved up here. I know it was hard for him because he left his parents, whom he's really close to and all his best frineds behind.
I've never quite figured out what I am supposed to do to make it any easier. For 4 years I have tired everything I can think of to try and make him feel more at home in this town. My parents have been nothing but suportive and welcoming. I don't know what to do anymore. For the last 4 years that we have been married I have watched him gain weight (me too unfortunetly, but more on that another time), his health get worse, and out sex life dwindle to non-existant. His frineds have come up to vist a few times and his parents come up for vistis too, but these haven't been often enough or long enough to break through what's bothering him. He never talks to me, I read his blog sometimes and find out thigns he never tells me. Tonight was one of those nights. I have to admit that it shook me a little and led to me creating my own blog.
I don't know what to do with him anymore. I take care of things around the house during the day before going to work ( I work nights) to try and lighten the load that he has to worry about when he gets home. I do this because admitedly I can't cook all that well or a lot of different things like he can, plus I am not home to have it hot and waiting for him when he does. But he still makes up chores that need to get done around the house to weigh on his mind till it drives him crazy.
Now I am asking you out there who are reading this if this makes any sense to anyone. Now we bought the house we live in two years ago now, before we were renting a trailer that very nice, but getting a little too small to be comfortable anymore. There was still laundry, the dishwasher still needed empting, and the garbage still needed to be put out along with the vacuming and dusting and all that. However, and this is what doesn't make sense to me he makes more of a big deal out of these then he ever did there. He hated his job then and still does now, but now it's like a constant thing with him. I have tried to get him to look, but of course if you read his blog you should know that there isn't a lot of jobs available that pay decently. He feels he couldn't get any that are and when pushed to try for a civil job that would pay better (and he could ace the test in his sleep because he's that smart and has now lived in the area long enough) he doesn't answer and just blows it off. So we are now both frustrated and there doesn't seem to be an end. We don't get any more bills then we used to I even cut out magazine suscrcptions that I had to save money and I wasn't finding time to read them anyway. So I don't know what happend. We almost went broke , but then his parents gave us a lot of money as a gift from a fudn they needed to close out and saved our buts. We both work and he is still afraid the money is going to run out. It's his biggest thing. He is so obsesed with money.
Now he wants me to move away from the only town I have ever really known and away from all my family and I mean all extended as well as immediate. Of course from all my friends as well. Though I guess this is only fair, but with the amount of help my family has given us I don't know if living away from them would be a good thing. Add to that they my mother hatess travel of any kind and my brother and sister can't aford to travel with all my neices and nephews to come visit I would never see them unless we came here and with him an d money we'd never be able to come back.
He is also driving me nuts about his birthday this year. He wants to rob my family and I from doing anything for him. He thinks we don't have any money so he won't tell me anything he wants and he wants my family to not get him anything either. Now this is a big slpe to all ov us who love him and want to use his day as a way to show him he's special. What he wants I can't give him. If you read his blog you will know that he wants his frineds up and playing this game called battletech, which I know nothing about and find it way above me to figure out . I would love to do that for him, but I can't make his frineds come and I don't have a waay to contact them anyway to ask them. We don't have the room to put them all up either even with out big house.
Anyway enough about him. I am also writing this for me. I got turned down for what seems to be the 100th time for a teaching job that has come up in the area for my subject area. I am getting very upset by the idea that by time I get my career going it will be time to end it. I don't know what it is that happens at interviews that don't land me to job. This last one went well it seemed and they really wanted me to show up for the interview so I took the day off because of the crappy time they gave me and went. Only to be greeted with a call two days later staing that I didn't make it to the next round. Of course my husband tried to be nice about it, but I think he was happy that I didn't get it because he seems happiest when I don't succeed as long aas he's not. I think it would kill him to see me end up with the job I want when he either can't or won't or doesn't know what it is, which I think is half his problem.
I have also toyed with trying to be a writer. This, however, didn't work. I started this book and was a part of a writers club my frined asked me to join once and after the first meeting that I went to they stopped meeting on line. It was an club that was organized with people who write by invitation only by aol chat. Only once asked into the group chate room were you able to find them. Anyway after that failed and she stopped seeming interested in reading what I was writing I stopped writing it. Without no one pressing me for more or giving me a deadline I just put it aside. Even though others have read the work and liked it without support of those who are not afraid to tell you to your face you suck, I have no ambition to keep goign with it. So every now and then I may end one of these blogs with a tiny bit of it in hopes that if someone reads it and likes it and can lead me to get it published that would be great.
I though I had cought a break when a web site I like to go to couldn't offer me a postion I had applied for, but offered me a special assignment that menat writing a character descrption off every character in the 5 Harry potter books. However, what I got was the 14 year old kid who aske dme to do in the first place telling me, an English teacher that I didn't incluse physical descrptions of these characters. I wrote back to him and stated that I was upset that he didn't read them (he admited he didn't really read though them well) and how can words like "horse like face" not be considered descriptive. Needless to say once he receved the 34 page project one time I might add, he has not published it on his web site. I think he still doesn't like it. He has now asked me to inclued info from the Harry Potter book before he posts anything, but I don' t know if it will ever see the light of day.
Anyway it is now 2 am and my husband is probably wondering where I am and thinking I am watching t.v, which by the way he thinks I do all day before I go to work which is not true, but more on that another time.
Thanks for reading the ramblings of a wife who doesn't know what to do anymore and if there is anyone out there who can offer any suggestions feel free, till then I leave you with a tiny bit of my non finished book not titled yet. Well that's a bust because I can't cut and paste I will try to leave you all something another time.
Enjoy !!!
Mrs X
This blog has been created because of my husband. He has one on this site as well. You may know him as Dr. X His blog is live from the outskirts. I say it's been created because of him because I've seen him get satisfaction from his writing on this site and I need some of that right about now.
You see for some time he has been writing on here and telling everyone we don't have money and he doesn't have any fun anymore and that this is a washed up place to live. Most recently he has gone so far as to post a local newspaper article about gangs that was plublished a few days ago, which really set his "I want to move out of here" attitute he's had into high grear. This is unsettlting for me. I have lived here all my life. I have only moved away once and that was to be closer to him when we were dating. Of course once we got engaged and he didn't want me to have the type of career I wanted in NYC I moved back home. Once married he moved up here. I know it was hard for him because he left his parents, whom he's really close to and all his best frineds behind.
I've never quite figured out what I am supposed to do to make it any easier. For 4 years I have tired everything I can think of to try and make him feel more at home in this town. My parents have been nothing but suportive and welcoming. I don't know what to do anymore. For the last 4 years that we have been married I have watched him gain weight (me too unfortunetly, but more on that another time), his health get worse, and out sex life dwindle to non-existant. His frineds have come up to vist a few times and his parents come up for vistis too, but these haven't been often enough or long enough to break through what's bothering him. He never talks to me, I read his blog sometimes and find out thigns he never tells me. Tonight was one of those nights. I have to admit that it shook me a little and led to me creating my own blog.
I don't know what to do with him anymore. I take care of things around the house during the day before going to work ( I work nights) to try and lighten the load that he has to worry about when he gets home. I do this because admitedly I can't cook all that well or a lot of different things like he can, plus I am not home to have it hot and waiting for him when he does. But he still makes up chores that need to get done around the house to weigh on his mind till it drives him crazy.
Now I am asking you out there who are reading this if this makes any sense to anyone. Now we bought the house we live in two years ago now, before we were renting a trailer that very nice, but getting a little too small to be comfortable anymore. There was still laundry, the dishwasher still needed empting, and the garbage still needed to be put out along with the vacuming and dusting and all that. However, and this is what doesn't make sense to me he makes more of a big deal out of these then he ever did there. He hated his job then and still does now, but now it's like a constant thing with him. I have tried to get him to look, but of course if you read his blog you should know that there isn't a lot of jobs available that pay decently. He feels he couldn't get any that are and when pushed to try for a civil job that would pay better (and he could ace the test in his sleep because he's that smart and has now lived in the area long enough) he doesn't answer and just blows it off. So we are now both frustrated and there doesn't seem to be an end. We don't get any more bills then we used to I even cut out magazine suscrcptions that I had to save money and I wasn't finding time to read them anyway. So I don't know what happend. We almost went broke , but then his parents gave us a lot of money as a gift from a fudn they needed to close out and saved our buts. We both work and he is still afraid the money is going to run out. It's his biggest thing. He is so obsesed with money.
Now he wants me to move away from the only town I have ever really known and away from all my family and I mean all extended as well as immediate. Of course from all my friends as well. Though I guess this is only fair, but with the amount of help my family has given us I don't know if living away from them would be a good thing. Add to that they my mother hatess travel of any kind and my brother and sister can't aford to travel with all my neices and nephews to come visit I would never see them unless we came here and with him an d money we'd never be able to come back.
He is also driving me nuts about his birthday this year. He wants to rob my family and I from doing anything for him. He thinks we don't have any money so he won't tell me anything he wants and he wants my family to not get him anything either. Now this is a big slpe to all ov us who love him and want to use his day as a way to show him he's special. What he wants I can't give him. If you read his blog you will know that he wants his frineds up and playing this game called battletech, which I know nothing about and find it way above me to figure out . I would love to do that for him, but I can't make his frineds come and I don't have a waay to contact them anyway to ask them. We don't have the room to put them all up either even with out big house.
Anyway enough about him. I am also writing this for me. I got turned down for what seems to be the 100th time for a teaching job that has come up in the area for my subject area. I am getting very upset by the idea that by time I get my career going it will be time to end it. I don't know what it is that happens at interviews that don't land me to job. This last one went well it seemed and they really wanted me to show up for the interview so I took the day off because of the crappy time they gave me and went. Only to be greeted with a call two days later staing that I didn't make it to the next round. Of course my husband tried to be nice about it, but I think he was happy that I didn't get it because he seems happiest when I don't succeed as long aas he's not. I think it would kill him to see me end up with the job I want when he either can't or won't or doesn't know what it is, which I think is half his problem.
I have also toyed with trying to be a writer. This, however, didn't work. I started this book and was a part of a writers club my frined asked me to join once and after the first meeting that I went to they stopped meeting on line. It was an club that was organized with people who write by invitation only by aol chat. Only once asked into the group chate room were you able to find them. Anyway after that failed and she stopped seeming interested in reading what I was writing I stopped writing it. Without no one pressing me for more or giving me a deadline I just put it aside. Even though others have read the work and liked it without support of those who are not afraid to tell you to your face you suck, I have no ambition to keep goign with it. So every now and then I may end one of these blogs with a tiny bit of it in hopes that if someone reads it and likes it and can lead me to get it published that would be great.
I though I had cought a break when a web site I like to go to couldn't offer me a postion I had applied for, but offered me a special assignment that menat writing a character descrption off every character in the 5 Harry potter books. However, what I got was the 14 year old kid who aske dme to do in the first place telling me, an English teacher that I didn't incluse physical descrptions of these characters. I wrote back to him and stated that I was upset that he didn't read them (he admited he didn't really read though them well) and how can words like "horse like face" not be considered descriptive. Needless to say once he receved the 34 page project one time I might add, he has not published it on his web site. I think he still doesn't like it. He has now asked me to inclued info from the Harry Potter book before he posts anything, but I don' t know if it will ever see the light of day.
Anyway it is now 2 am and my husband is probably wondering where I am and thinking I am watching t.v, which by the way he thinks I do all day before I go to work which is not true, but more on that another time.
Thanks for reading the ramblings of a wife who doesn't know what to do anymore and if there is anyone out there who can offer any suggestions feel free, till then I leave you with a tiny bit of my non finished book not titled yet. Well that's a bust because I can't cut and paste I will try to leave you all something another time.
Enjoy !!!
Mrs X
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