Beat

Hello again fellow readers !!

Well today didn't go as badly as I had thought it would. I can tell you, this blogger didn't get much rest though. The situation at work just bothered me too much to let me rest well. Had to get up early so I could go to the doctors before work. Thankfully this blogger is never unprepared. While waiting for 10 minuets or so in the doctors office for her to come in, I got some writing done. Also while waiting for the very understaffed receptionists office to even report I was even there I got some reading in. There you have it folks, this blogger can turn even 10 minuets of available time into something productive. However, am beat now though. Shouldn't be this tired, but for not sleeping all that well and earlier in the week too, this blogger needs some rest. Though got some things to do before bed, can at least make sure I get there early tonight. Got a big day ahead tomorrow.  Hopefully more writing will ensue. Actually I can almost count on it :-D

Good night fellow readers and have a great weekend !!

ups and downs

Hello all !!

Today was weird day. Had some really good moments and some not so good. The good is, are you ready for this???, I WROTE !!! That's right you heard it hear. I wrote some more of the Tess/Troy story. I didn't get a lot written, but it's a start to get back to it. I am glad to report, mentioned character does make an appearance. Who says I don't deliver on a promise :-D

Now to the not so good part of the day. I know every office has rules and most employees find a way around those rules. This blogger is not innocent in this by any means. However, getting called out by a fellow employee who has no jurisdiction over me, who also does not call out other employees who are more obvious about they way they break this rule is uncalled for. Really trying not to play like I am without fault, but A I don't call out other employees and B don't threaten to go to the boss about it. Are we 5 years old?? Going off to tell on people? It's a professional place of business. If you don't like me, that's fine. Even though I didn't do anything to you? Do not take it out on me like this. I don't want to, but if my job gets in jeopardy from this person, I will have to call out people whom I very much like and I don't want to be put in a position to have to do so. Even writing about it doesn't quite get the anger I feel about it out. I just feel so frustrated that I don't even know where to begin to try and make it ease.

Here's to hopping tomorrow is a better day and one that ends better then the scenario in my head.

Night all

Long time no post

Hello there fellow readers !!

I am sure you are all asking yourselves why it's been so long since last I wrote. The answer to this question you may think was some horrible sickness, some very great news that kept me too busy to write, that I just gave up the blog or you just didn't notice my absence. Sadly the real answer is not that exciting or interesting really. The fact is I was just plain wiped out. My full time job has been beating down at me and taking all the energy I can muster just to get through the work day and my home life when I get out. With only a couple of hours to myself before having to start the cycle over again, I sometimes have to pick and choose what my downtime is going to consist of. Most of the time it involves reading (too obvious I would think). For the most part real life just got in the way. Lately though I have been feeling the push again to work on my writing. One of the things that got me back to this point was an interview I recently saw of my favorite author Laurel K Hamilton. Laurel was promoting her new release A Shiver of Light, and during the process of discussing what little she could without giving the whole thing away, she discussed getting published. One of the things she said really resonated with me. Basically she called to those who wish to be authors to not give up. To not take the first rejection and decide to call it quits or self publish. Don't get me wrong, she didn't have anything bad to say about doing so, but the point was to not give up when/if you get rejected. Laurel brought up the fact that if she had given up herself at that point, her first book in the Anita Blake series (which has 21 books now in it's series) would never have been published. Her other piece of advice that really hit home was to just write. Don't talk about doing it, just do it. Doesn't have to be hours and hours. Doesn't even have to be anything that you decide to keep, you don't find your voice as an author without writing and finding what process works best for you.

Let me tell you why this affected me so. With regards to not giving up after one rejection (or even 2 or 3), my biggest fear is (no matter what some people have told me about my own novel) rejection. I am not one who takes to it well. Now I am no stranger to it, oh no quite the contrary, but I personally don't always handle it well. I have a very low self-a steam and am afraid that once out there, no one will read it or that if people like it I won't be able to believe it.  So trying to skip this part all together I had opted to just go the self publish rout when the time came. However, with these words of wisdom from an author I admire, I may just put myself out there and see what happens. The second piece of advice hit home more on a personal level. As mentioned above, I LET my job and other things keep me from doing what I really what to do. I LET myself talk myself out of writing for one reason or another. Mostly because I felt so far behind that I figured what's the point. Hearing her say that it doesn't have to be all day, but a little part of your day (till of course you become a full time writer) made me realize I could work on my writing in the bits of time that I do have and that's ok.

I have put off my goal for too long now. I am almost 40 years old, have a job that I can honestly say is not what I still want to be doing 32 years from now when I am still having to work at age 70 to keep up with the cost of things. Of course just getting by now would have something to do with that too, but I digress. I not only want, but NEED a change. No one can make that happen but myself. It took that interview to remind me that one day I could have fans, eager to watch a video interview regarding my newest release. It was in that moment, when I realized I didn't want to just be be a fan watching the interview, I wanted to BE the one interviewed, that I decided I had to get back to writing here and working on my book.

Now to end this long blog, I have a teaser from the Tess/Troy novel. Ready for it? Here it is: Veronica Jane. I will leave you all to ponder who/what she is in the novel, but I can tell you this: She is IMPORTANT and is responsible for eventually cementing the future of those 2 characters.

Bye for now !!