Not much

going on in the writing situation lately. Also not really getting anywhere trying to get a word program on my pda either so. Got other things to plan right now that is taking up my time as well. Work has been busy and not much time to write.So all in all I am ok, just blocked for the moment.

Frustrated writer.

Now for a rant.

I recently wanted to go back to my pda for my writing instead of hand writing. The idea is the word program I had (key word there is had, more in a moment) on my pda would link to my computer when I "HotSynced" it to my computer. then I'd copy and paste to word. Done this in the past when I first started writing this book and it worked. No having to waste time typing up what I wrote because all of it was typed. You might ask wasn't that a pain with a styles. Answer no. My husband had thought of that and bought me a full keyboard that folds up that the pda attaches to and when set up looks like a mini computer. So back to my original rant. It's been years since I've used it and as I already posted, concerned about running out of space and having to start another notebook before I finish this book. So I decided to go back to what worked in the past and get moving on the typing and use my pda again. I finally after many starts got the thing to finally turn on. Later that day when I went to use it on lunch @ work I discovered I didn't have the word program anymore. Come home that night and finally get the thing to HotSync with my computer thinking once I did the program would come back with all my other data, NOPE. Now trying to find a word program for my pda so I can finally get to use it like I want and find everything but what I want in searches. Every time I think I might have hit on what I wanted, it turns out to be a big goose egg. So if anyone has any suggestions on where I can find/download a word program info would be greatly appreciated.

Of course was frustrated last evening trying to do this as my husband watches me struggle. This morning more searching was fruitless before work. Husbands promise of help didn't happen and still can't find anything. Other things happened this morning before work that also added extra stress before leaving and even while trying to get to work. So can't wait till book is done and published and hopefully hits it big enough so I can just work from home. All this leads to restless sleep as this was still on mind and just not in mind fram to bo @ work let alone write while there. Of course it was  so busy today I wouldn't have gotten anything written anyway, but that's besides the point. Mind set is half the battle of any job, especially a writer.

End rant. 

On the writing front

I had a good writing day today. Not as many pages as yesterday, but some good stuff was put down. I think so anyway :-D However, dismayed at the fact that I am running out of space in the notebook I am currently writing the story in and don't know if I am going to get it finished before I run out of space. That doesn't mean I won't move on to another one, but was hoping that wouldn't happen. Don't know how long this book is going to be, but I know where the story is heading and how it ends. I just have to get the characters there now. I knew the beginning and ending before most the of the middle came to me in start and stops. knowing where you need to be, but not knowing how to get them there was what has made this take as long as it has. The other stories I have started, didn't have as much info thrown at me when the ideas came. This one came to me pretty much fully born with how it should start and end and the few twits in the middle. Not how or what led up to these points, just that these were concretes that were not going to change. The characters were very clear that certain things had to happen and they have not wavered on these. Though I must say Troy doesn't like one thing that has to happen to Tess very much, but understands that it's necessary and though not happy with me for it happening, knows that it leads to a greater good in the end.    

More news !

Surprise !! 2 blogs in 1 day.  However had to share that that today was a  big, big  day writing wise !!! I am thrilled with it so far. Can't wait to get some time to type up and edit it with my good and locally (where she is) famous friend who has been so great throughout all the times I've been working on this with helping me edit. Even though we don't get to see much of each other since college staying in touch has been the best thing that could have happened to me. Her successes drive me to continue to work toward my gold when I might have given it up and listened to the nay-Sayers. Even though I also decided on a dedication for my book, the only person I'd acknowledge on the acknowledge that would be in it would be her. She's been my rock during all the years I've been slowly getting this together. If not for her encouragement this project and dream would have died a long time ago. Everyone else mostly has been either indifferent or treated it as a passing fad or just something else I'd never complete. That along with the above mentioned friend are the driving forces behind me. As sick and tired as I felt all day, I was energized by the pages completed. Helped me get through the day. Now it's time for a quick shower and early to bed. Night all !!

Not sure what's going on

with me lately. I've been not able to write on my novel "The Reunion" for the last few days. At first I thought it was because my characters needed a break after pouring forth a bevy of emotion they entrusted me to put forth for them. I thought I also needed a rest after it too. So Friday and over the weekend put aside the work expecting Monday I'd pick it back up. Yesterday the notebook I am writing the novel in just sat staring @ me on my work desk not enticing me to pick it up, open it or write a thing. I am trying to get over a cold so maybe being extra worn down I didn't have the creative juices flowing. Even today though a little better then yesterday, still feel I rather read something then write something. Which is sad because I really want those of you out there who have showed interest in my story to be able to have access to more of it or the whole thing @ your local book store. I also have other characters who want to come out and play and I put them off just so I can finish the one, but @ this point none are going to get finished. However, I hope today I have some inspiration to write again and be just that much closer to bringing to the masses.  

On the home front and writing

On the home front, things seem to be going well on the new job for the most part. Doing the usual cleaning and doing the bedding. Went through some old mail and got rid of things which is always good. Used this past week to take care of some old mail that I meant to take care of so feel accomplished for that. Still got some of that stuff to catch up with, but it was nice coming home from a crappy night @ work to my order of clothes I'd been waiting for. Waiting for time off again to go through my old clothes and get rid of stuff. Just got to stop myself from reading instead and having my day getting away from me as it does most times :-D

On the writing front, not much to report sadly. I after my wonderful day of things flowing, my characters decided to take a day off from talking to me. I didn't want t force it to come as that never works for me so knowing it wasn't going to happen, though I hate loosing a day, I didn't want to write crap so just placed it aside till it's right. I can't wait to finish as it's getting nearer and nearer. Hope those of you who have read the first chapter have enjoyed it and are interested enough to read more or by the book :-D

Writing came easy, oh and a surprise. Info on another one of my stoies

Writing came easy today. The characters and words that i wanted just seemed to flow today. Even though hand writing in a small notebook, got about 4 -5 pages written today. One of my co-workers who knows about my working on the book noticed I wasn't have and problem with word flow as I was yesterday. I had complained to him yesterday that after a certain point the words weren't coming and I felt blocked. I find that if I feel this way it's best to set the writing aside for a time. Usually the next day things pick back up and the characters want to talk to me again :-D

I am loving living the world of Tess and Troy at the moment. Of course every once in awhile my character Anita McFarland wants to come out to play and I have to put her in a box as I really don't want to pick back up with her till I at least finish the other.

Excited

Hey all !! I am excited to post that the pivotal scene has been written !! Yea !! Is playing out a little differently then I thought it was, but one character that I thought was going to only play a small part in this part of the book, ended up talking to me (you writers out there know what that's like) and insisted on playing a bigger role. Can't wait to see how this plays out with the rest of the book.

Yet another update

   Just in case anyone is interested, by time I left work last night I was @ a pivotal scene in my book. The lead in to the "Big Breakup". Once this part get written, the twist occurs and then the it's the end. I am excited that it's nearing completion. I really just can't wait to have the words "The End" be penned and for the world to be able to have access to something that's only been mind and 1 other person for all this time. Then it's on to the next project. Believe me I have enough started that if I ever get to finish them and get them published there would be a bunch of books out there @ book stores with my name on them. Which would be wonderful to see.
   
   Of course just had a set back in the progress of the book. I just found that a Saturday's worth of typing up what was hand written and saved on a portable drive and had originally thought to have been saved to my computer can not be opened at all and had been deleted off the drive.As it was my husbands and had only borrowed it for that day and didn't want to keep it on there once given back. So just a tiny set back, but annoying to say the least. Though not as upset about this as I could be as it's only about 5 pages that are missing and there is so much that needs to be typed anyway, it's not that big of a loss.        

My dream

My dream is that I get at least one of the books that I have started published. Of course I have to finish writing it. I've been working on it for 10+ years now. I've been trying to fit in writing in between working full time and doing the normal clean up of the house and wanting to do my own reading. Of course doing my own reading has taken up more of my free time then writing has, mostly because reading can be done anywhere and it relaxes me more. Lately I've been setting a goal to work on it more and finish it. I have been diligently working hard on getting it written. I do have to say that I hand write it as most of it's done while I am @ work and not on my personal computer. I have to then type up more of what I have written and edit. Thanks to a wonderful friend that I have had since college, I have another pair of eyes to help edit. So it's still a while off, but want it out there to gain some notice so it can be published. Living in a small town with no literary agents and 1 publisher that is one you pay them to publish your work, it's going to take more then the book being finished and being good to get it out there so I am counting on all you cyber people to spread the word and make this girls dream come true.

Working on completeing my resolution

I know it's been a long time since I posted a blog. So many things have changed and are still in the process of changing that no time to update about that. What I did want to update is the fact that I'm working on a book and want to get it published. What I am going to do, as it's still a work in progress, is post a bit and see what kind of reactions I get or suggestions. Hopefully if anyone who reads this finds it interesting and passes it along to someone who can get it published I'll be grateful. So here it is :

                                                               

                                                               Chapter One

Troy Noble was on his way home from his job as a landscaper, and he let his mind wander to what was tonight – his ten year high school reunion. Tonight his life was going to change forever; he was going to make sure it did. He had a plan. As he was thinking over this plan, Troy arrived home.  He had just gotten off from work and was grimy from the day’s labors so he hopped into the shower to clean up, revealing a very tanned and muscular body from many days working outdoors. When he was finished and had dried off, he put his mind to picking out the outfit he would wear tonight. He stood with a towel wrapped around his waist in front of his closet. After careful consideration of his wardrobe, Troy chose a black suit with an emerald green button down dress shirt. He knew from past experience the shirt would bring out the green of his eyes and that the suit was cut just right to show off the muscular build of his body to perfection. As he was getting dressed, he let his thoughts wander to the reunion again as he sat on the edge of his bed, pulling on his pants. He couldn't believe that it was tonight. He had waited eight years for this night. It was eight years ago when the women he loved and wanted to marry walked out of his life for what could possibly be forever – Tess. Just the thought of her name, let alone the fact he was going to see her tonight, sent his mind off to never-never land. The phone rang, snapping his mind back to the present.

"Hello" he said a little rougher then he intended.

The voice on the other end belonged to his friend Joe. Knowing what tonight was, Joe wanted to check on his friend. "Troy" Joe said, "How are you doing?"

"Fine" Troy said.

"Just fine?" Joe asked, knowing his friend was lying. "Nervous about tonight?" Joe asked.

"No" Troy said, then paused "Yes," he admitted reluctantly.

 "Don't worry – things will work out great. Tess and you were meant to be together. I've been listening to you talk about her since we've been in school together,” Joe said, being supportive of his friend’s plans for the night.

"Thanks." Troy said. "I needed that boost of confidence".

"You’re welcome."

"I have to finish getting ready,” Troy said. “I’m running late."

"Ok, then I’ll talk to you later. Let me know what happens."

"I will,” Troy said. “Goodbye, Joe."

"Goodbye," Joe replied.

When Troy hung up the phone, he finished getting dressed and assessed his appearance in the mirror.. The suit was a far cry from the jeans and tee-shirts he used to wear in high school. Not bad, he thought. He just hoped Tess would think so too. Tonight he had to look just right.

As he left his house to drive to the reunion his mind wandered back to Tess. Tess was the girl he had been in love with since sixth grade. However, as is typical with boys his age, he didn’t know how to express those feelings, so he teased her. He actually thought he had lost her when he teased her so much in ninth grade that she would run anytime she saw him. Things looked up for him in eleventh grade when she offered him a pen when no one else would. He was determined to get back into her good graces because he still liked her, so he made sure that he returned it promptly. That did it for her. After that when they saw each other she would at least say “hi” to him. Things really changed for them in their senior year of high school. They had first period class together. During this time he would flirt with her by making the chair in front of him push against the one that was behind her making her chair move so she would have to notice him. During some of this time she had a boyfriend and watching her walk into class a little breathless and her lips kiss-swollen killed him. He wanted to be the one who left her like that. There wasn't anything he could do about the boyfriend, but he could always flirt. Things really heated up when she and her boyfriend broke up. He saw her upset one day as she came into class, and it nearly broke his heart. He laid low with the flirting and listened to her talking to her friend to find out what happened. They broke up!!! He couldn’t believe his luck. After that he stepped up the flirting. One day he was pushing on her chair like always, and she didn't turn around to flash him a smile like she always did, so he kept pushing on the chair till it was nearly out the door. That day the teacher caught him because of her chair being so far up from where it normally was. It was embarrassing when the teacher brought it up in front of the whole class. She was so unbelievably sexy when she blushed, he thought, remembering that day fondly.

As his drive to the reunion came to a dead stop in rush hour traffic, his mind continued to focus on Tess. Now he remembered ever better times that he spent with her at college when he spent time with her before and between classes. He still remembered the first time he saw her sitting outside the library with the sun glistening off the natural blond highlights in her hair. She looked like an angel. Then when she flashed him that smile of hers he felt as if he had the air knocked out of him. He had to struggle to not trip as he walked passed her. When he came back out of the building, and she was still there, looking so good, he had to get closer. As he got closer he could see what his coming over was doing to her. He could tell that she was nervous, but she acted cool. From then on they spent days like that no matter what the weather. They even spent time sitting in his truck talking. It seemed so easy and natural with Tess. However, the only catch to this comfy situation between them was now he had a girlfriend and she didn't have a boyfriend.

Then, not long before he was due to graduate, she met somebody. She had switched majors, but she was still going to the same school. From then on he didn't see her anymore. Every once in awhile he would happen to drive passed her house. She would sometimes be outside when he passed by. When she was, he would either beep or, when he was bold enough, stop by and talk with her in his car. Other than those times he didn't see her. The last he knew, she was leaving town to get her bachelor’s degree.

The last time he saw her was at a local restaurant. He was meeting quickly with his father to be introduced to a prospective client. As he was walking to meet them, he saw her sitting with a woman he knew was her mother and two other women he didn't know. He flashed her a big smile and she did the same. When his meeting was over, he went over to her table to greet her. She invited him to stop by her house sometime because she was back in town for good, but he never saw her again because he knew if he did, he would have to tell her how he felt and he couldn’t do that. His family wouldn’t be happy with him for breaking an unspoken promise to marry Cristina. So instead he had to forget Tess’s invitation to stop by and information that she was back in town for good.

Thinking back on those days warmed his heart. It was those carefree days that led to when he really fell in love with the bewitching woman that captured his heart so early on. Then he thought back to the day when his mother showed him the Sunday paper engagement section and asked him, "Don't you know this woman?" He started to argue with her stating that he wouldn't know anyone who was getting married, but then his heart skipped a beat when he saw that familiar smile looking back at him with another man with his arms around her. That was the worst day in his life. Since then he had been keeping tabs on her. He knew where she was living and where she was working, but he never tried to see her again. He knew his plan for tonight was a little bold and that he was risking a lot, but he also knew that it would work like a charm and win him the woman he loved.

With that final thought, Troy pulled into the parking lot of the restaurant where the reunion was being held. He locked his car and got out into the hot summer night. He strolled to the door, went inside and found the room where the reunion was. He walked over to the sign-in booth where he ran into Mary, a friend from school who recognized him right away.

"Troy," she said. "How nice to see you!”

"Nice to see you too," Troy replied and took his name tag from Mary. Then he walked further into the room.

He scanned the room and saw the familiar faces of his former classmates, searching for one in particular. He was nervous that she wasn't going to show tonight. That would be just his luck, he thought as he walked over to the bar. He ordered a drink and as he took it from the bartender, he turned and saw her. The sight of her took his breath away. He took a swig of his drink to steady his nerves. Tess looked just as he remembered. He gathered his nerve and walked over to where Tess stood talking to her friends. Tess had her back to him and didn't see him approaching.

When he was standing right behind her he said, "Hello, Tess."

At the sound of his voice, Tess turned around and saw Troy standing before her.